I really want to post updates, outings, cher's birthday, 9th monthsary (which was lovely) but it seems like my heart and mind is putting everything on hold until results are out, which is.. in less than 12 hours time.
"2 more days. It's stressing me out so badly even tho i know constantly thinking of it isn't gonna change anything. When it comes, it will come, and what will be will be. However i fair, whether i pass or fail, touch my heart at least i know, i gave my very very best. The lesson learnt is that i've got to study so much earlier and ahead of time, with the same quality, and perhaps, i wouldn't be sostressed next year this time. For now i'd just really pray and hope for the best, be it a miracle, or a lesson. I'd just really hope i won't disappoint them again, but if i do, i promise to make it up by doing two times better and working three times harder.
There's always gonna be another chance, one for us to cherish, hold on to, and fight even harder for in the future. Be it good or bad on tuesday, it's a start, to a brand new year. So lets go manda, fight again, and fight strong. "
Posted this yesterday. I think even that doesn't reflect how.. worried i am. I know i shouldn't be, and perhaps no one else is taking it that seriously or being so stressed up about it. I'm trying to chill about it but i know subconsciously i'm worried and it's a load that i can't get off my chest just yet. Cos' i dream of it almost every night, i don't know if i dream of what i hope for, or my dreams are of comfort to me. But i guess, what my results are going to be tomorrow will not change regardless. What will be will be. I know Your plans and ways are good, and higher than mine. Praying for a miracle nevertheless.
